deep breaths,Loves of my life,and seeing Rufus Wainwright.

Breath In.........visualize the air to be a calm and cooling color as it feels your lungs,stomach and chest,and BREATH out.....letting all the toxins out of your body with that breath,let it out in a sigh..and that sigh can be of any sound you choose.

I would like to aspire to living my life with these sort of Mantras~especially on days when you(I) need it most.

Like today for example,started as any other good morning,a pretty relaxed start,was giving my daughter her morning milk,that she sometimes asks for still...(from the carton,mind you!)...and thought to myself before i headed to the studio that i had best get her ear checked that she fell on yesterday,on the ledge that is beside the stairs.Those DAMM stairs,yep,they are horrible,and before i curse them anymore,i really do have to,leave them,they cause me too much heartache.:)

But,yes,a lil trip to the DR.'s office to get her ear looked at,is a good idea,because the swelling hasn't gone down from yesterdays lil mishap.

So,off we go,to drop in,I Love my Dr. btw,which is nice.

We did have to wait,and after we saw him,he suggested we go to Childrens' to have the earlobe drained.SIGHHHHHHHHHH.....ok,so,off we go...on our Journey,well before we leave there,We have watched the movie Garfield twice,and she has had a needle stuck into her ear,and pricked,while the nurses hold her down,and she looks into my eyes,crying in agony,god,this feels horrible,i love this little person more than anything on this planet,and she is TORN apart right now.

So,when we get through that,they stick this tape type stuff all over her ear,and wrap her head,headband style with gauze to hold it in place.And if that wasn't enough,because she is picking at the gauze,the DR.(who was wonderful really)gets a 'hat' which is this mesh like thing that goes over her whole head.:( :(.....this is looking far worse than it is?....

Anyway,long long stressful time to say the least.

I chatted with my Mom a couple of times and my producer friend who is producing my record,and got a bit of feedback from them,and told them what was going on,but,ya know how hard these things are to do without a partner..? VERY.So difficult it is to not have that best friend to lean on in times like this.And my latest love has let me down recently,so,his friendship is not very accessible.

I end my evening,by deciding after seeing that Audrey is in good spirits and feeling fine,that i will indeed go the the Rufus Wainwright show that i bought tix for a month ago.

Feeling slightly guilty when i arrive home,or just sad for her lil ear,Rufus was very good,he was outstanding actually,and i did enjoy myself.He is such a talented piano player,charismatic and all that stuff,if you have yet to listen to him,please do.I can relate to some of his journey so it seems.

Well....goodnight for now.

Help This Environment!

What is happening out there!!!

Well,
hello,
and welcome,i am thrilled and feel lucky that
i have such a good friend,that she would give me a website for an early b.day present!
and here we are.....thanx jody quine....

i cannot believe what is going on outside? it is bazarre and frightning,very.
i think that this is certainly an indication,that we need to do our part,as Al Gore is trying to make very clear.
i live in vancouver,B.C,on the pacific northwest coast,and the weather we're experiencing is ver different form anything we've experienced in a very long time,global warming.....when mothere nature,is as powerful as she is,and is speaking out as loudly as she is,we NEED to listen.

please,if you haven't had a chance to inform yourself,of what Al Gore and others have to say about,what we can do individually to make a difference,take the time to do this.

as for my sing'n,today is a house day,with a little bit of work,btwn,laundry and vacuming,(i'm housesittiing for some friends),
i've been working on sorting out some live recording files....i think i'll put a song that i recorded with my band,live at "the Yale"
on my c.d.

bye for now
x
jen